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Monday, June 1, 2009

Part Of My Heart.

It's Fucking frustrating.
It's like watching the closest person to you get murder.
And you're just there to supervise, can't even suggest that this is a crime.
I'm Just there, Regarding this, Like attending a movie.
And its Killing me. Killing all of the most precious part of me.
My Love for you guys.
And to my surprise, It was you that decided it was fine.
Fine to say that sort of Horrid remarks to people who love you?

My day Was alright.
Boring, Normal.
Failed a History test, Failed a Math test.
But surprisingly , I attended all my classes.
Which to me is great. I'm starting to get into this "Working" Habit of which I do not Acquire.
Everything was A normal , Average, Undistinguished day for me.
Or so I thought.

4rth period came around.
To see you smiling without a frown.
But that's just a smile that's stitched.
Its falling apart, Inch by Inch.
We started Off with your future.
The choice you made left a great departure.
I Was surprise you finally found it.
You weren't lost in yourself, Like a seed in a dirt pit.
But that was far from what I expected.
We brought up her name, and that smile was just deflected.
You face was no longer appealing.
The truth.
Shocking , and revealing.
How could a mere person live with that offense
"You think you have it so hard" Was her defense.
Did she not realize the people she was hurting?
The Branches to Your tree, you were trimming.
They've been there for you, In every consistent way.
and now you think that its evil that they portray.
You always talked about one guy.
Did A Guy get in the way of your Reply?
You could never communicate with them.
Leaving them hurt and feeling condemned.
"You always leave me out of things"
Meanwhile you're the one who cant open up to new Strings.
They gave you your world and Thoughts.
You returned with a puzzling knot.
Never to tell them how you feel.
You can't expand on a relationship you think is real.
You're hurting the ones I care about most.
So please don't act like you're a ghost.
Thinking the world rotates around you .
When really you're the one with feelings overdue.
Stop it with the acts.
Listen to what they say,
It means more then what you ask.
Surprisingly so, I care about you , My "Perfect girl Living in a Devastated world"
I've always cared about you.
Even when you stomped on me like a welcome mat
and continued your journeys with the new friends that you arrived at.
I still Considered you as a treasure.
My love for you had no measure.
But why.
How could you?
I Care about them As well.

Dumplings.
I Remember when I First saw you in grade 9.
You were buzzing around, Looking like you never had time.
A little shy at first
But once around you, You had a love that could never burst.
I Always wanted to get to know you more.
You were so Intricate .
A Story with an incomplete war.
A war indeed.
That was waiting for me.
The cheerfulness was a ruse.
To get other people to be amused.
You didn't care about yourself.
As long as a smile reached their mouth.
Pieces of yourself ripped and tattered .
But with love you shared, It could never be shattered.
Now in the present.
You're finding it more hard to vent.
Because people aren't listening to you.
I want to be there, I want to disguise whats blue.
I Don't know you as much as I want to, "Dumpling"
But I promise.
No matter what.
I'll help you to defeat whats most annoying.
Whether It may be people
whether it may be things.
I'll get whats bothering you
and Defeat it with sharp things.
Hahaha. Trying to make you smile, With my cheesy rhymes.
I hope it's working. (:
Please be mine Dx

We walked after school.
A mere simple gesture that we do .
but my mouth wouldn't stop.
Its you .
I've Cried for you.
I've spent nights were all I can think is what you're up too.
You can worry me like you wouldn't believe.
Even if you break a finger, I Go insane with Disbelief.
I want to make sure you're alright.
I don't want to see you upset, and try to hide.
Hide it with a smile
Hide it with a hug
Hide it with all the power you have
You still can't examine what strength You once had.
But now its slowly crumbling.
You try to get back on your feet, With every breath, But you cant compete.
Compete with the pain.
Compete with the Hurtful words that drive you insane.
I've known you for so long.
I cant handle seeing things with you go wrong.
I don't want to see that frown.
The one you always hide, by putting it upside down.
People Piss you off. I'm pretty sure i have before.
But who cares about the past, Its the good memories that will last.
But with the future heading near.
I cant let you disappear .
Not to another Street.
Not to another school
and Definitely not to another Part of this world.
I've put so much thought into you.
My thoughts stuck to you like glue.
You made me laugh.
You've made me cry.
You made me a napkin, Oh why oh why? xD
But to see you Frustrated.
It's not like you at all.
And to hide it in a empty shell.
Is a lie that you wont tell.
You've had your fair share of men.
Hearts broken, Impossible to mend.
You picked it up on your own feet.
Even when people discouraged you.
You never let insults be your defeat.
I just want to say dear friend,
The way you are,
It's got me trippin.
You can make a friend in an instant.
Grab there emotions with no resistance.
I'm really jealous of how you can be.
It's the truth, Don't try to defend me.
Ever since grade 8 .
I noticed a change
You were starting to differentiate.
You differed among the Norms.
Made emotions turn into storms.
You Lost a friend for quiet sometime,
But now its fixed, It took a lot of time.
To see you smile, Its what I Want.
Forget the rest, Your lasting affect is going to haunt.
Haunt the empty Places that once was our life.
Haunt the streets that time sacrificed.
Haunt the thoughts of every person you meet.
Haunt the words I wish to never speak.
Goodbye.
I don't want it to happen.
Not with you.
Not ever.
Never.
Please, My dear friend.
Explore with caution.
Live your life till the end.

<3
Love
- Yours Truly.