Take A Peek

Lets take a Peek Into Today.

It was Fun to be with You ; My old Friend.

We talked like we did in grade 9.

But theres something different about you now.

What happened to us?

I Wonder sometimes If you forgot about me .

Remember I Used to think You were a Bitch?

Remember all those memorries we shared?

Day by day ; Hours Passed by and We would Never forget about eachother.

Seconds passed ; And you were always there.

You met another.

Im glad you did. She's a Great person. Way better then I Could have ever been.

I Wish I Could be there for you more.

I wish we could Talk all the time.

You have your 3.

Im moving ; So hopefully I'll have my 3 as well.

This is not a Bitter ending.

The sweet seed of friendship most grow ; We must gain branches to live ; we must bear The fruit of love to prosper.

Ill be that Rotting fruit ; On the ground ; Looking up to you.

Ill always look up to you.

Every moment , day by day.

You were the Best of friends.

Im sorry , This is comming to an end.

Aside from the Lasting smiles we shared this morning ;

The rest of my day Was pretty Fine.

I Played the Flute.

I Was so fail.

We had a Festival.

I had to play With grade 11s and 12s.

Oh Happy Joy Joy Happy.

After that School Finished, I Was enjoying my time with Maria and Christina and the boys.

Ahaha.

Then I Went to see my Dear Gabbrielle.

You came along ; walking aside with your dog.

You seemed Upset since the Last time we met.

Whats Wrong?

I asked over and Over again.

You replied with small Words Like, "Yeah , Im Fine"

Where You really fine?

I Hope I Didn't Put you in a Awkward Position.

I know what You're Facing with Her.

The Only Problem is I both Love you .

My 2 Dearest Friends.

I don't Want to be caught In a situation were I might Lose one.

If I Try to Be more Enthausiastic about one ; It feels Im neglecting another.

Both Of you mean the World to me.

I wish we Could put all The shit aside.

Remember Grade 8?

Boy ; How we've changed.

Im not One to Judge or Be Biased.

But Don't Lie to me , My dear friends.

You Wished Life could Rewind , Back to The day of Those Simple Laughs.

Were the Drama Was Not finishing Homework.

Hahaha. I don't Wont te get myself Lost into the Lost memories.

All I'll get in Return is the Tears.

What Im trying to Convey here ; Is the fact that I don't Want to lose The people I Care about.

Remember.

I've Cried for the Both of you.

I don't Want to cry about just One of you.

I just Dont want to Cry.

Anymore.

I Dont want this To be concieted.

And I Feel Like it is.

Its A Blog ; and All I Ever want to Do is talk about Those Around me.

Haha ; I'm Such an Oxymoron.

I Hope both Of you will get to read this.

M & L.

Im sorry If I Ever hurt you Both.

You both have the Smiles of angels.

But The frustration of Devils.

Both of You have problems.

And I wish I Could Solve them All.

Theres 2 of You.

And only 1 of me.

My days At Bosco Are Becoming more and More Irrataing.

Im not going to Lie to You.

I'm Desperate to Move.

All miss the few Who I Treasure.

But what Lies at Johnson ; Seems like the better for me.

I Saw you again today.

When I Saw Your Face ; I Knew You had something to say.

You always have something to say.

I Love listening to you.

And I love when you Consider listening to me.

Im Being honest here, My dear friend.

I think I Treasure you more then Anyone I've ever Met.

As We walked together to "Your" Car.

You mentioned Him.

He Likes you Again.

Im glad he does.

Im glad I Can see that Missing piece Be filled again.

I Thought He was leading you on.

But in reality ; He lied about lieing.

He Really does love you.

Do you realize that , My dear Friend?

He Loves you.

Don't be cynical.

I can see Smiles In your eyes.

You're Grinning through your Movements.

You're happy again.

But why?

Why, my Dearest Friend.

Why Do I feel bitter?

My childish Fantasies over expanding in my mind that day Me and Him talked.

I Thought more then I should of.

Im guilty of saying this.

I wish I Could of been with him.

I havent fell in love for 3 years.

I Miss the grasping emotion.

But that was then.

And This is now.

I was Oh so very Childish to Grasp Such fantasies and Let them Dilly Dally in my mind.

I Love you , My dear Friend.

Your happiness is what Completes me.

Not him. Never.

I don't want to Speak of this no longer.

Us, Its what means More to me.

Im Defiantly Surprised By Your future Boyfriends Actions.

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I think This really proves something.

The fact he didn't want to hurt you.

Although he did end up doing it ; He's here to correct that.

My dear friend.

Did you see the way you smiled today?

you're in Love again.

You're Not lost anymore.

Ill be here for every moment you spend with your emotions.

Whether its Love ;

Or even hate.

Tell me Dear Friend.

Talk to me like theres no end.

Love.

It's May ;

And I'll im noticing is Love.

Everythings Falling for it.

Will I Be one of those to be Caught in that Ruse?

Love Likes to Be a Mockery to My emotions.

Love gives me those Sleepless night.

Love gives me those thoughts ; always about you.

But who's Going to Captivate it now?

I'd Like to finish this off with an Apology.

To all those Men Who I've "Loved"

All It ended Up doing ;

Was Hurting myself.

Im done with that.

I want to start off new.

So lets take a peek , My dear friends.

Into the Next chapter ,

I Want to Live forever.

A Memory that Will never

Ever

End.